“Without any highfalutin words, I pledge to protect and fight for you my babies- always.”
This affirmation keeps running on my mind for a couple of days and I must say I’m truly, madly, deeply in love with my 5-year-old daughter and my three-year-old son. I started loving you since you were in my womb and that motherly love continues to grow stronger and stronger.
But hey, I just have one wish: that I will be allowed to freeze time, that we won’t age and that you won’t grow up. I mean I just want you guys to remain as my little ones. Despite our daily chaos in and out of the house, I just want us to stay this way.
I may sound selfish but the truth is I’m afraid of the time when I have to let you go. You are my life and I’ll do anything to take care of you.
I know I have to let go of my playmates/best friends. In the years to come, you will no longer yearn for my hugs and kisses and our bedtime stories. You will be more interested in spending time with your friends and you’ll be engaged in other activities like sports and malling.
That day is far from reality but I have to be ready. I can never be ready. The very thought of your having a different world scares me. How I wish we have forever for baby talks, dressing up and cuddles on the bed.
At this writing, I feel the irony of excitement, contentment, love, and anxiety. But I know you are not mine. You have to spread your wings and soar higher. Because you have dreams to chase and you have a life to live.
Just don’t forget mama, okay?
I love you, my babies. I always do. For now, let’s enjoy each other’s companies. It’s 10 o’clock in the evening and I got freshly baked gooey brownies. Let’s?