Motherhood will force you to take a vacation.
The idea of taking a break and giving myself a breather keeps entering my thoughts following an emotional breakdown two weeks ago.
The exhaustion of doing the household chores and taking care of my newborn and toddler took a toll on me. It hit me so hard that I suddenly indulge myself into crying and yelling.
I was overwhelmed with my juggler role and I realized that I have to be gentle with myself. I knew I needed a break but I can’t do it because the very thought of leaving my kids even for an hour scare me. Honestly, it’s the momma guilt that prevented me from doing so.
Instead, I treated myself with a different break.
I’m giving myself a break from trying to be a perfect mom.
I reminded myself that it’s okay to make mistakes.
I’m giving myself a break from crash diets just to lose my baby weight.
I told myself with utmost confidence that
I am beautiful.
I am smart.
I am kind.
I am generous.
I am strong
and most of all,
I love myself.
Yes, I love myself despite the permanent dark circles under my eyes thanks to sleepless nights.
I love myself for focusing on my family and for taking care of their needs.
I love myself for choosing to be a stay at home mom.
I love the person that I am today and not a pricey (free) Prada bag will convince me to be away from my precious kids. Motherhood is tough, really tough but I know I can be tougher.