My children consider me as their superhero/best mom/super mom, but when I checked reality, I’m not close to being the best or super momma. I rarely perfected the chocolate chip cookies that they’ve been dreaming and I can’t even give them a spotless house. When we’re out in public, I can’t pacify my toddler from throwing tantrums.
So tell me, do I qualify as a super mom? No. Because I’m not perfect and I constantly make mistakes even on the simplest things. If I were a super mom, I wouldn’t feel like a loser with my daily battles.
My to-do-list barely has progressed. I promised myself a month ago to attend a baking class and hire a tutor for my daughter but I always give my husband the reason of either “It slipped my mind” or “I didn’t have the time.”
Worse, I barely have the time to take care of myself as much as I want to. Being a stay-at-home mom, I devoted myself to taking care of my family. From sleepless nights of nursing the baby and planning our weekly menu ahead of time, I wish I could have a one day off when I can treat myself to a salon and shop new clothes. For me this is selfish. I want to avoid the momma guilt feeling and instead keep my kids company even if that means silently crying in the corner of our room when everyone’s sleeping soundly at night.
I have a lot of daily battles that I will never win but one thing’s for sure, I’m trying my best to be a great mom- someone who has a big heart to her partner and children, the woman that they can rely on no matter what. Because I love them and that love is more than enough to keep us going.
I may not be a super mom and I’m okay with that.